valentines day

i don't really like valentines day. for a few reasons.

i don't think its pointless, some guys and girls just need the reminder to tell people they love them. they may still love them if they don't say anything. but its nice to hear them say it.

I love doing nice things for people. and thats why i hate valentines day. i don't have anyone to buy flowers/card/dinner for, or to do anything sweet and thoughtful for. i'd love to have somone i could leave little notes for to lead them to a big present, or to just make their favorite kind of cookie or somthing. but i don't. and no one to say it to me.

i'm sorry i'm in really self-pitying mood right now. i should be praising God for giving me the people i have. so what if its not want i want? i'm sure he's got somone ready for me. i sure hope so.

anyways. this friday we had a sectional game, we won, which was cool, but the best part was the party we had at myria's afterward. ask me somtime. i'll tell you why it was so amazing.

But it shouldn't have been! it should have been somthing that jsut happens, somthing that no ones notices, just normal, and no one else did. but not me. its all i've been able to think about for two days now. i don't understand why God gave me this. i don't know if its supposed to help me understand other's pain, but right now it just straight-up sucks.

how're you guys? all 2 of you that read this?