basketball, family, school.

i'm really annoyed today.

So this season in basketball, we were about as good as everyone expected us to be. not very. But so far in sectionals we've gotten a lot farther than anyone thought we would be. and since we won tonight, Friday we're playing in the championship game against whitesville.

why is this bad you ask?

because for the past month and a half my friend and i have been planning to drive down to north Carolina to surprise visit my best friend ori. and that trip just so happened to be planned for this weekend. so now, i get to sit on the bench and watch my team play, and i get to miss something that I've been looking forward to for a couple months now.

its so frustrating. i love basketball. i love my team, my coaches, i love getting the exercise and i just love playing the game. and i thought this season would be even better than normal, because since the patruskas were gonna give me a ride home every night, my parents wouldn't whine and complain as much.

wrong. my parents constantly whine about how inconvenient basketball is. and how they hate coming to get me after games, and how my dad thinks sports are a royal waste of time. i can't get away from it! today after the game we were hanging out a little while to watch the game after ours, and one of the first things my dad and brother day to me is " i wish you guys had lost, then we wouldn't have to deal with this anymore."

who even says that? aren't parents supposed to be supportive and happy for you when your team does well in sectionals?

I'm so sick of my family. my dad whines constantly about me and what i love while ignoring more important things. my mom can't freakin put down the wine glass, and my brother is a complete jerk and yet everyone still seems to think he's god's gift to mankind. i don't understand it.

it doesn't help that school totally sucks right now. like the work doesn't bother me. I'm all caught up from being in Haiti and all my teachers still love me. but i have no one to talk to. i get to school before homeroom, stand around in the hall for a little while then start the day. i don't talk to anyone during classes, during lunch i eat out by the unused lockers in the "senior hallway" by myself. usually i read or something to pass the time.

i hate my life right now. i know I'm supposed to be content with what I'm given, but even the total scumbags i know, the people that are just absolutely repulsive, have friends. i don't know what it is about me, why i don't know how to talk to people, but i am the only person i know who is so at the bottom of the social foodchain that they have to eat their lunch hiding in the new wing.