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i don't really know how to describe how i feel right now.

i just watched a really good movie, and I'm utterly content except for the fact that i am completely alone. i feel like when i feel like this that perhaps it would be better if i had someone to share it with. when i am happy, not a shallow, I've been amused happy, but a content peaceful happy, no one is ever there to see it. and when I'm miserable and all i want is a hug and someone who cares, i carry that alone. i have God, But he created us for relationship with each other as well as him.

and Walter died last night. He was an amazing man, one of the most humble,gentle men I've ever met and a true servant of the lord. i met him the first year i went to Haiti, and we kinda became buddies as the years passed. and now hes gone. I'm gonna miss him.