Language of the soul

i think one of Gods most amazin creations is music.

for me at least, the music i listen to is the side of my personality i allow to become dominant. My mom says that "music is the language of the soul." and the more i think about that the more it makes sense.

last year when i was going through my hardcore emo times, all i listened to basically was the band evanescence. They are amazing musicians, and amy lee has one of the most hauntingly beautiful voices i've heard. But the tone and feel of their songs is that of complete and total despair. I you have to listen to them to really understand.

But my attitude and feeling about everything pretty much mirrored that feeling expressed in those songs i loved. i was miserable. thats really the only was to describe it.

About the same time i decided that i needed to change was about the same time i realized how those songs were effecting me. i made a consious decision to stop listening to that kind of music. The bands whose words would say that my actions were justified. And i think more than anything else that has been my major support in rebuiling myself as somthing better. i still absolutly love the band evanescence, but i understand that i cannot allow myself to listen to them. their effect on me is too strong.

and when you think about it, even outside of that slightly embarrassing revelation about my past, when you meet someone new, and you find out that they like the same kind of music as you, there is a sudden feeling of kinship. I might be going way out on a limb here, but it's something i've noticed in myself as well as the behavior of other people.

I don't know if its just a teenager thing, but i deffinatly think music is what effects me most.