hello. i know i havn't blogged in forever. aha but since no one knows out this blog anymore, no one will mind lol = ]
these past three days have been amazing. like totally unexpectedly fabulous. not for any particular reason, but they just were.
It wasn't because of some event i was hoping for, or because of some actual, identafiable reason. i just didn't feel awkward, i didn't feel ugly and fat(which is how i feel noramally. don't feel bad for me thats jsut how i am)
for some reason the serotonin was just flowing more than usual. Its funny, when you're sad or upset, and pretty much all you want is for someone to notice and maybe just talk to you, no one seems interested in being anywhere near you. but when you're happy, or just calm and content and frankly couldn't care less whether or not anyone talked to you, that's when people decide to be friendly. kinda ironic don't ya think? it makes me laugh.
Friday, April 25, 2008
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
hehe oops
haha i just relized that it was right after i told everyone that i was not blogging any more that i started blogging again. oops =]
Monday, April 14, 2008
survey
When was the last time you really laughed?
prolly saturday night with ashley
Do you twirl or scoop your spaghetti?
how would you scoop spaghetti? i twirl it
do you drink milk straight from the carton?
nope
Who knows a big secret about you?
ori, kay and now annie i think
How long is your hair?
around my shoulders, a little longer
Do you like Batman?I have never seen Batman!
who was the last person to say "i love you"?
someone at the cast party. we were all in a really "i love you" kinda of mood. wierd...
Do you like anyone now?
yes = ]
When was the last time you sang out loud?
today
What did you have for breakfast?
eggs and toast
Is your birthday on a holiday?
nope. nowhere near a holiday. unless labor day counts
What instant messaging service do you use?
trillian (AIM)
Can you cook?
yes. i love to cook!
Did you have a nap today?
nope
What was the reason you got in trouble last?
i think when Mrs. Shwartz caught me chewing gum in school
What do you wear more, jeans or sweats?
jeans
Want some green beans?
no. and that is a superly random question
Where did you get the shirt you’re wearing?
its the tee-shirt for our play
Do you have any regrets?
yup
Do you use an alarm clock?
yup
Where was your default My Space picture taken?
at the creek
Do you ever snort when you laugh?
nope
Whats the first thing you notice of the opposite sex?
i don't really know.
What color is your favorite shoe?
addidas sandals = ]
Who would you like to see right now?
a bunch of people.
Are you a social or antisocial person?
depends on the day.
Have the cops ever come to your house?
don't think so
Do you have a tan?
ha no. i'm so white i'd glow in the dark
Would you rather sleep with someone, or alone?
with someone prolly. idk. i've never thought about it
What radio station do you listen to?
the drive, 98 pxy, 98.9. WCMF, 106.7,
Are you afraid of the dark?
not really
Have you ever been in a pit?
not that I know of
Do you miss someone today?
yes. ori and some people from skool
What’s your favorite song?
i have lots
Who’s your last missed call?
a wrong number
What’s your favorite commercial at the moment?
i don't know
Do you always wear your seat belt?
when i'm driving yes. when i'm riding in someone else's car, no. its weird i know.
Do you like bananas?
yes
What do you wear to bed?
t-shirt or wife beater, and Pj pants
Who was the last person to disappoint you?
no comment
Do you trust people?
no
What does your 5th text message in the inbox say?
" i was just getting to school" from rickey
Is there someone you want to fight?
nope
Do you know what you want to do with your life?
be a doctor. go to Haiti as many times as i can. raise a family with kids that love God. and that's weird, cause that particular desire is not something i would have thought i would want. strange.
prolly saturday night with ashley
Do you twirl or scoop your spaghetti?
how would you scoop spaghetti? i twirl it
do you drink milk straight from the carton?
nope
Who knows a big secret about you?
ori, kay and now annie i think
How long is your hair?
around my shoulders, a little longer
Do you like Batman?I have never seen Batman!
who was the last person to say "i love you"?
someone at the cast party. we were all in a really "i love you" kinda of mood. wierd...
Do you like anyone now?
yes = ]
When was the last time you sang out loud?
today
What did you have for breakfast?
eggs and toast
Is your birthday on a holiday?
nope. nowhere near a holiday. unless labor day counts
What instant messaging service do you use?
trillian (AIM)
Can you cook?
yes. i love to cook!
Did you have a nap today?
nope
What was the reason you got in trouble last?
i think when Mrs. Shwartz caught me chewing gum in school
What do you wear more, jeans or sweats?
jeans
Want some green beans?
no. and that is a superly random question
Where did you get the shirt you’re wearing?
its the tee-shirt for our play
Do you have any regrets?
yup
Do you use an alarm clock?
yup
Where was your default My Space picture taken?
at the creek
Do you ever snort when you laugh?
nope
Whats the first thing you notice of the opposite sex?
i don't really know.
What color is your favorite shoe?
addidas sandals = ]
Who would you like to see right now?
a bunch of people.
Are you a social or antisocial person?
depends on the day.
Have the cops ever come to your house?
don't think so
Do you have a tan?
ha no. i'm so white i'd glow in the dark
Would you rather sleep with someone, or alone?
with someone prolly. idk. i've never thought about it
What radio station do you listen to?
the drive, 98 pxy, 98.9. WCMF, 106.7,
Are you afraid of the dark?
not really
Have you ever been in a pit?
not that I know of
Do you miss someone today?
yes. ori and some people from skool
What’s your favorite song?
i have lots
Who’s your last missed call?
a wrong number
What’s your favorite commercial at the moment?
i don't know
Do you always wear your seat belt?
when i'm driving yes. when i'm riding in someone else's car, no. its weird i know.
Do you like bananas?
yes
What do you wear to bed?
t-shirt or wife beater, and Pj pants
Who was the last person to disappoint you?
no comment
Do you trust people?
no
What does your 5th text message in the inbox say?
" i was just getting to school" from rickey
Is there someone you want to fight?
nope
Do you know what you want to do with your life?
be a doctor. go to Haiti as many times as i can. raise a family with kids that love God. and that's weird, cause that particular desire is not something i would have thought i would want. strange.
i ♥ drama!
I'm back!
lately I've been suffering from blog with drawl. and especially now that the play is over i needed to write something! so I've decided, that i will blog. and do so regularly but there will be little to no personal info disclosed. yay = ]
OMG THE PLAY IS OVER!!! = [[[[ I'm so sad! bee was right in saying that the play is like a three month long high. the4 last week with all the dress rehearsals and all the crazy busyness, its the best. even when everyone is all stressed out and annoyed with each other, its still an awesome time.
last week was seriously the best performance week I've ever been through, i mean bee did her usual flipping out cause things weren't just right, and of course Andrew got all emo and pity me because he was "soooo incredibly stressed out" please, people, take yourself less seriously, it wasn't even that stressful. don't get me wrong i love Andrew to death, hes a really cool guy, but seriously. And of course there was drama with Renee and Tim and Beth and Greg, but that wasn't unusual.
We all got to be Friends and there was little to no backbiting or fighting, and its was just over all a really fun experience. Ashley and i are scary when we are together, cause we both posses an ability to deliver scathing sarcasm, and we just let it out on each other cause we both know we can handle it. it was so funny when i drove hadassah and Ashley to bee's house, cause Ashley and i were talking, and hadassah was like "holy crap you guys are so mean to each other!" and it was really funny. = ]
I'm so glad i was convinced to be in You the Jury, cause otherwise i wouldn't have all these amazing memories. I never would have got to know bee and em, and my opinion of all the people i have been in drama with would be entirely different. Like Mrs Shwartz! I'm so glad I've been able to talk to her through drama cause shes totally different than she is in school.and when you think about it, there was no way i would have been able to get through last year without drama. I mean seriously i think it kept me from going the rest of the way insane. like when i was all crazy emo and stuff, that one time Kay and i got in trouble for Kay leaving practice without telling anyone, jus the way bee handled the whole thing, i think helped me turn my life around, so don't let anyone ever tell you that drama is a waste of time. at least not at Lima.
to have directors and volunteers who present a Christ like example is such an incredible blessing. and even more than being great people, thats what i would have liked to said to bee and em, i would have loved to thank them for their awesome example and their ability to love everyone in a godly way. this is awkward to write about so I'm gonna stop. but basically, i ♥drama!
sorry. personal suject matter. but from here on out, no more.
Thursday, March 27, 2008
goodbye, farewell
hey crazy kids.
hows it goin? I've decided that being responsible is kinda annoying. i don't want to be responsible. i don't want to look for scholarships. don't want to work out. i don't want to study for my SATs. i want to sit and eat and watch TV.
but anyways. i think I've figured out a way to deal with my life. its not very effective. but it'll do until school is over.
and I've decided that there will be no more blogging for Emily. when Mrs Schwartz came up to me and started talking about how she read my blog. i decided to be done. so, if people are interested in how i am, rather than looking on the world wide web, they can send me a text.
= ] peace out.
hows it goin? I've decided that being responsible is kinda annoying. i don't want to be responsible. i don't want to look for scholarships. don't want to work out. i don't want to study for my SATs. i want to sit and eat and watch TV.
but anyways. i think I've figured out a way to deal with my life. its not very effective. but it'll do until school is over.
and I've decided that there will be no more blogging for Emily. when Mrs Schwartz came up to me and started talking about how she read my blog. i decided to be done. so, if people are interested in how i am, rather than looking on the world wide web, they can send me a text.
= ] peace out.
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
favorite song!
It's 2:45 the baby takes his 1st breath
the mother never knew he only had a few left
and the father gets a call in the middle of the night
his breath gets short and his chest gets tight
But he's 16 and he's driving too fast
takes a turn to the left, it would be his last
nobody knows what happens if he turns to the right
no body in the car woulda died that night
But he's 32 and invincible
the cancer he had it was visceral
he never saw it coming
but he had his own life
sick in the morning and he died in the night
We're all so
We're on the line
We're all
We're all [oh]
We're wasted, no no no
We're all wasted
We're wasted, no no
We're all wasted
He's 7 years old, got his bat in his hand
he's looking for his father and he doesn't understand
'coz dad's too busy got some deals on the way
his son sits alone as the children play
And he's 18 he couldn't wait to move out
his parents wonder what the rush is about
they never bothered with his dreams only thinking of theirs
wonder's why he doesn't call and why he doesn't care
But he's 32 and invincible
witheverything he is based on principle
he never had a truly happy moment in his life
he didn't want the kids and he didn't want his wife
We're wasted, no no no
We're all wasted
We're wasted, no no
We're all wasted
We're wasted
We're all wasted
We're all wasted, no no
We're all wasted
23 now, got his life in his hands
he's looking all around and he doesn't understand
'coz life's too busy, things get in the way
we all feel alone every single day
and im 18 couldn't wait to move out
it's been five years and now im starting to doubt
whether all my dreams are just aimless stares
looking out to someplace that isn’t there
when i'm 32 will i be miserable
wheneverything around is based on principle
well, i have a clue,ooo wouldn't it be nice
to never be alone in this wasted life
"Wasted" - cartel
the mother never knew he only had a few left
and the father gets a call in the middle of the night
his breath gets short and his chest gets tight
But he's 16 and he's driving too fast
takes a turn to the left, it would be his last
nobody knows what happens if he turns to the right
no body in the car woulda died that night
But he's 32 and invincible
the cancer he had it was visceral
he never saw it coming
but he had his own life
sick in the morning and he died in the night
We're all so
We're on the line
We're all
We're all [oh]
We're wasted, no no no
We're all wasted
We're wasted, no no
We're all wasted
He's 7 years old, got his bat in his hand
he's looking for his father and he doesn't understand
'coz dad's too busy got some deals on the way
his son sits alone as the children play
And he's 18 he couldn't wait to move out
his parents wonder what the rush is about
they never bothered with his dreams only thinking of theirs
wonder's why he doesn't call and why he doesn't care
But he's 32 and invincible
witheverything he is based on principle
he never had a truly happy moment in his life
he didn't want the kids and he didn't want his wife
We're wasted, no no no
We're all wasted
We're wasted, no no
We're all wasted
We're wasted
We're all wasted
We're all wasted, no no
We're all wasted
23 now, got his life in his hands
he's looking all around and he doesn't understand
'coz life's too busy, things get in the way
we all feel alone every single day
and im 18 couldn't wait to move out
it's been five years and now im starting to doubt
whether all my dreams are just aimless stares
looking out to someplace that isn’t there
when i'm 32 will i be miserable
wheneverything around is based on principle
well, i have a clue,ooo wouldn't it be nice
to never be alone in this wasted life
"Wasted" - cartel
Thursday, March 20, 2008
emoness could not be contained
I'm glad this week is over. its been pretty bad. I had play practice twice this week, which usually is good, but play practice is kinda pointless for me, cause in the big final scene I'm on for about 30 seconds at the end, and my big scene where i run the show is totally inconsequential. It's funny and everything, but isn't really important to the plot or the play as a whole. so basically i sit there for 3 hours and work for about an hour. if that. don't get me wrong i love my part, and i love play practice, i wish we had it every day of the week, but it's been kinda frustrating lately.
and school has been gay. its so freaking confusing to feel the way i do. Cause now there's this guy, and i have no idea what he thinks but i'm becoming attached. and that just confuses things worse.
then there are thse people who "care" about me. Which is great and all, its nice to have freinds. but i can't think of one of these people who wouldn't turn around and run away screaming if i told them why i was upset. which is upseting. lol. and ori lives in NC. it sucks havning you're best freind live so far away.
and school has been gay. its so freaking confusing to feel the way i do. Cause now there's this guy, and i have no idea what he thinks but i'm becoming attached. and that just confuses things worse.
then there are thse people who "care" about me. Which is great and all, its nice to have freinds. but i can't think of one of these people who wouldn't turn around and run away screaming if i told them why i was upset. which is upseting. lol. and ori lives in NC. it sucks havning you're best freind live so far away.
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