stole the idea from Bee

Summer is awesome. but I'm going crazy being surrounded by my family 24/7. someday i will learn to deal with them, but i think us all being so alike does not lend any help towards an easy relationship. wow that was a complicated sentence.

50 things you might not know about me.
1. I love fuzzy blankets
2. I think to much
3. I secretly envy shallow people
4. but they drive me nuts
5. God makes perfect sense to me.
6 but i still don't get him
7. I would rather work on the car with my dad all day rather than go shopping.
8 I believe everyone is more beautiful without make up
9. mostly because i think make hides who you actually are.
10. most of my opinions have no logical basis
11. I was a cutter for 3 years. longer than anyone thought
12. I love knowing everything about someone.
13. but i rarely tell anyone everything about me.
14. but i divulge secrets to fast.
15 I know that made no sense.
16. I sit and write philosophical essays and enjoy it
17. I know that makes me a nerd
18 If you can't deal with that your not worth my time
19 I'll give everyone a first chance.
20 you have to earn my hate, not my love.
21 Its not hard.
22. certain people will always be more special to me than you, even thought you may have know me longer.
23. I have more in common with people older than me than people of my own age.
24 I wish i knew how to thank all my role models without looking dumb.
25. I'm way socially awkward.
26. I have a half sister
27. My only wish would be to experience everything once.
28. I hate being normal and wish i was all at the same time.
29. I hate meaningless drama
30. Edgar Allen Poe is awesome.
31 I wish i had a best Friend
32 I lost mine because of a stupid decision
33 I miss her like crazy
34. I have an obsession with the number 8
35. I have a phobia of being underwater.
36. I'm never good enough
37. I don't really believe anyone could or should love me
38 yes i know that was disgustingly emo
39. i really hope no one reads this.
40. I think that everyone has a part of them that is good.
41. I love old airplanes more than most people i know.
42. the C-47 is the most beautiful airplane in the world.
43. i wish i was a twin
44 i wish i had the talent to be a writer
45. I'm envious of true Christians.
46 they have something i want but don't deserve.
47. I've been in love.
48. Its not worth it.
49 I hope some boy proves me wrong
50. This was easier than i thought it'd be.

hmf

is the only way to ascertain the value of somones life, so see how much they are missed when they are gone?

cause if so i'm SOL

"is it possible for the seeking mind to attain peace?"
-elizabeth greenwalt

A Dream Within A Dream

Take this kiss upon the brow!
And, in parting from you now,
Thus much let me avow--
You are not wrong, who deem
That my days have been a dream;
Yet if hope has flown away
In a night, or in a day,
In a vision, or in none,
Is it therefore the less gone?
All that we see or seem
Is but a dream within a dream.

I stand amid the roar
Of a surf-tormented shore,
And I hold within my hand
Grains of the golden sand--
How few! yet how they creep
Through my fingers to the deep,
While I weep--while I weep!
O God! can I not grasp
Them with a tighter clasp?
O God! can I not save
One from the pitiless wave?
Is all that we see or seem
But a dream within a dream?

-Edgar Allan Poe

Alone

From childhood's hour I have not been
As others were; I have not seen
As others saw; I could not bring
My passions from a common spring.
From the same source I have not taken
My sorrow; I could not awaken
My heart to joy at the same tone;
And all I loved, I loved alone.
Then- in my childhood, in the dawn
Of a most stormy life- was drawn
From every depth of good and ill
The mystery which binds me still:
From the torrent, or the fountain,
From the red cliff of the mountain,
From the sun that round me rolled
In its autumn tint of gold,
From the lightning in the sky
As it passed me flying by,
From the thunder and the storm,
And the cloud that took the form
(When the rest of Heaven was blue)
Of a demon in my view.

-Edgar Allan Poe